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A Generation X transgender woman, Sherilyn Connelly came out of the closet in 1999. Her own identity still emerging, she had stumbled into a difficult, stifling relationship. Also, her employment at a tech company ceased when the dot-com bubble burst. It was a goth boy from Bolinas that first took her shopping for make-up, and the San Francisco goth scene became her respite.
This wickedly eye-opening memoir reveals how Connelly dealt with a toxic partner and found her voice as a woman. A longtime cinephile, it tells how she became a writer, rekindled a love for cult films and horror conventions, and learned "the secret to becoming a star." Her remembrances are also a tale of a bygone era of sex, music and San Francisco and its darkened underworld of goth strays--her literate vampires and beautiful ghosts.
List of contents
Table of ContentsHymnal
Introduction: Out of the Bag and into the Abattoir
Prologue: Infernal Cartography
1.¿Six Feet Down at Age Twenty-Five
How the End Always Is¿17 delete¿ deleteBaby Doll, Check Your Cheek¿22 delete¿ deleteLeave Your Expectations at the Door¿27 delete¿ deleteLove in the Dying Moments of the 20th Century¿38
2.¿Honor Thy Error as a Hidden Intention
El Ritual de la Caja Para Gatos¿44 delete¿ deleteThe One to Walk in the Sun¿47 delete¿ deleteChoking on the Dirt and Sand¿49 delete¿ deleteGood Morning, It's Possum Day¿51
3.¿eXistenZ Is unPauseD
Josie and the Vampire¿56 delete¿ deleteKeep Circulating the Tapes¿62 delete¿ deleteSpang of the Loathsome Dead¿68 delete¿ deleteShe Gets to Sing Just Like a Bird¿75
4.¿Dead Cats and Cab Drivers
For Rent: Black Sheets, Never Reported¿79 delete¿ deleteYou Probably Think This Book Is About Yoü84 delete¿ deleteThe Midnight Sisters Convene in Kopenhagen¿91 delete¿ deleteWere You Jerking Off to Her or Were You Jerking Off to Me?¿97 delete¿ deleteA Large Room, Full of People¿103
5.¿The Epoch of Recombination
Mechanism of Occupant Ejection¿106 delete¿ deleteKeep Your Tracking Knobs Properly Adjusted¿109 delete¿ deleteJohn Calvin, He's Long Dead (We Gotta Get That in Our Head)¿113 delete¿ delete"Someday, This War's Gonna End"¿116 delete¿ deleteBleeding Like a Polaroid¿119 delete¿ deleteI'm Not an Angel, But at Least I'm a Girl¿124
6.¿The Lightning of Early May
A Walking Study in Demonology¿133 delete¿ deleteIncept Date: 22 Sept. 2006¿138 delete¿ deleteVisions of Dazzling Rooms¿142 delete¿ deletePerilous Night, Their Voices Calling¿148 delete¿ deleteA Flicker of Light Before the Dawning¿151
7.¿Welcome to Annexia
Partners in a Benevolent Psychopathology¿155 delete¿ deleteTwo Semi-Metallic Human Beings¿158 delete¿ deleteSome Semen Is Saltier Than Others¿163 delete¿ deleteProphecy Is Ragged and Dirty¿169 delete¿ deleteA Universe Gone Quickly¿171
Epilogue: Under the Zodiacal Light
The Beautiful Ghosts Mixtape
Index
About the author
Sherilyn Connelly is a San Francisco-based writer and librarian.
